I met this amazing man and we have been seeing each other for the last 7 months. It has been some of the happiest moments of my life. I find myself smiling more, venturing out more, and just being completely happy. I feel like I can be myself. I feel like my life has been so much better because of him. But I struggle telling my friends and family that I am in love with another man. I don’t want them to judge me. If I am honest, I am scared like hell that they will not look at me the same, that they would not want to deal with me anymore. I want to be able to live out in the world happily with him. I want my family and friends to experience the person that I have fallen in love with. I want to tell my family that I am a gay black man. But I don’t want to be shamed for it. When I am out in public I find myself becoming really envious of those that I see out and proud with their significant others. I want that to be me. I want to be able to live my life freely. I hate that I feel like I have to hide a part of myself. I know eventually I will have to finally tell my family because it’s not fair to my significant other that he has to be a secret in my life. I am going to do it for him eventually, because he deserves it.. But damn, I’m scared.